January 08, 2008

Physically Living Out One's Conversion

Remember how I said the Catholic Church's teaching on birth control was one of the hardest for me? Sure I know all about NFP and I have no doubt that it would work very well, if one had a chance to learn it. I have The Art of Natural Family Planning sitting here waiting for me to learn the basics.

Unfortunately, I had barely gotten past the flipping through it stage when the natural child spacing effects of breastfeeding wore off and I started phase of vicious 15 day cycles. I hadn't even figured out how to track things when they were relatively normal.

I can't say I was shocked when the pregnancy test came back. I know how these things happen, after all. I will admit that I wasn't particularly enthusiastic about it though. After our conversion, I was pretty sure a fifth child would be in my future, but this certainly wasn't my choice for timing.

It's been difficult. A few weeks ago I had to go borrow a bunch of maternity clothes from a friend since mine were still buried in boxes. I haven't been able to help with a lot of the cleaning, painting and other things related to getting the new house ready. I'm already now flexible enough in the middle to do some of the things I want to do and because of the baby, I insisted we all move back to our friend's house yesterday for a couple nights because the carpenters poured a finish on our kitchen counters and I didn't want to be in the fumes.

By now, of course, the fact that the baby is hanging out in there is becoming more real to me and I am excited (and plumper around the midsection). As I learn to follow the Church's teachings with both my mind and my body, I am beginning to understand the call to be open to new life and welcome another of God's children into my family. It's not an easy vocation to follow, and I, who still like peace and quiet and sometimes can't handle a simple spill or pair of poopie underwear, am far from sainthood. Yet without the struggle and the trials, being called to do things I'd rather not, how would I ever get there?


Congratulations! It's funny how God's timing is so often not ours - and yet how perfect His turns out to be!

Hopefully, there won't be too many more sessions at your new home involving noxious fumes, and you'll be able to settle in and nest a bit.

Posted by: Diane at January 8, 2008 09:53 AM


I hope everything will settle down soon.

Posted by: Sarah G. at January 8, 2008 10:07 AM

Congratulations...I think five is a nice number-- I bet the kiddos are excited!

Posted by: Amy at January 8, 2008 09:13 PM

Thinking of you with love.

Posted by: Patricia Tryon at January 9, 2008 01:47 PM

Very well said. I admire your willingness to accept this and even embrace it. This morning in bible study we discussed Jonah and how God grows us through the trials he sets before us. I hope the rest of this pregnancy goes smoothly and you're in your new house before he or she arrives.

Posted by: dcrmom at January 10, 2008 02:19 PM

Wait a minute now: You are homeschooling four children, you've been doing rigorous home improvement for months and months and in the middle of all that you still found time to conceive a child?
You rock, sexy mama!

Posted by: V at January 14, 2008 09:26 AM

So very cool. Congratulations.

I love that last sentence. It sums up faith in a rather specific way, don't you think? "...without the struggle and the trials, being called to do things I'd rather not, how would I ever get there?" So true. And so difficult. Praying for you. :)

Posted by: Angie at January 14, 2008 12:33 PM

Oh how wonderful! Congrats to you!!

Posted by: Stephanie at January 17, 2008 08:13 PM